Think being sick for this long has sapped me of all caring. Just don’t give a single fuck about anything, except waiting things out to get better.
Ever since this damn virus hit me I’ve been trying to push through it. Each day I push, the next I basically regress 2x.
So it’s been a stupid pattern that I’m breaking out of. Already wasted a week and a half inside my room.
Did get a +1, though.
Nothing special. Girl was basically on from the start. Messaged her a lot over Whatsapp as she was the only thing keeping me sane while bed-bound. Hooked her deep over half a week. Probably bad form to do so but I was bored.
She came over Saturday night, I met her half a block from my place around 21:30, went straight up, banged all night. Slept maybe half an hour until she left the next day at 11 — that was a bad call. Absolutely sapped whatever remaining strength I had left. But, because I’m an idiot, I decided make an even worse call. So I went to shower, have some coffee, and met up with Nick and one of his buddies (don’t know his online pseudonym so for now he’ll remain nameless).
Ten minutes after first bite of food I get massive abdominal cramps, wtf. And then I break out in total-body cold sweat. Also fucked. Dizzy, light-headed, on the verge of passing out.
No clue what’s going on. Shit was weird.
Anyway ten minutes later it passed… but again, instead of doing the smart thing and going home to sleep, I went with the guys for a walkabout. One hour, maybe two… too much for a system already fucked over by dehydration, sleep deprivation, oh and a persistent virus that’s lasted longer than any I’ve had before.
So that fucking took everything out of me. When I finally got home I (once again) collapsed in bed, and spent the next three hours on the verge of vomiting / passing out / feeling like death. Bed smelled of sex, too, and in my then-current condition it repulsed me.
Here’s +1 message that buddies got:
(yeah and we kept fucking after that)
EDIT: Not the end, forgot psycho thing, girl is going crazy thinking she’s pregnant, a day later, but doesn’t want to take the pill.
Gotta spread dem white genes etc etc.